just thought you'd like to know

Im still really new to this blogging thing and I am a bit challenged in a sense that I don't know how to link anything to anything. Lol, sad yes I know but I do have another blog that I just started and keep it updated more frequently. It is tishaandcompany.blogspot.com

ghost of my past

Well as I've said Nate and I are still friends and we still talk but I've been feeling that lately it was almost like a walk down shoulda, coulda, woulda lane. As much as I enjoy the relationship I am in with Lando I still think back to how things were with Nate. I have always felt like we've clicked and that he is like the boy version of me. We get along and things were good until the last little bit. Miscommunication and feelings of rejection and carelessness actually got the best of us. I talk to mutual friends and they are continually telling me he seems down, he really misses me, but when things are good in your present relationship, you don't walk away from it right. I find myself scared to even look back in the past because like any normal person, the past is past. Things can't be forced but why in the back of my mind do I wonder. Why am I never satisfied. It frustrates me. I have so much more on my mind but feel like I need to sensor myself for now at least. Ugh TBC...

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I've been feeling a bit under the weather and super exhausted. All I want to do is sleep and struggle peeling myself out of bed. I can't seem to figure out what it is. I will give it a week and if not I will make an appointment with my doctor. Portia says I need iron, my mom thinks I am anemic, I guess I shall see soon.

Change

There has been so many changes in my life that I don't even know where to start. I did forget my password and my email address I assigned this blogspot to so I decided to start off fresh with a new blogspot. Then I finally remembered and here I am. I was just going to leave this blog alone and never re-visit but I thought I should. I don't know maybe I will find a use for it, I'm just not sure about that quite yet. I am no longer with Nate but we still keep in contact. Funny how in the beginning things will never go wrong and then once you are out of the situation, you realize it was great to begin with and a lesson learned afterwards. He's still amazing but I feel like there is someone that will be able to stand me better and will balance me out a little more. If that's even possible!!
I love the blog world and am still learning quite a bit but it is refreshing for me because I can release my stress, thoughts, and concerns all at the tip of my fingers. It's awesome!