just thought you'd like to know

Im still really new to this blogging thing and I am a bit challenged in a sense that I don't know how to link anything to anything. Lol, sad yes I know but I do have another blog that I just started and keep it updated more frequently. It is tishaandcompany.blogspot.com

ghost of my past

Well as I've said Nate and I are still friends and we still talk but I've been feeling that lately it was almost like a walk down shoulda, coulda, woulda lane. As much as I enjoy the relationship I am in with Lando I still think back to how things were with Nate. I have always felt like we've clicked and that he is like the boy version of me. We get along and things were good until the last little bit. Miscommunication and feelings of rejection and carelessness actually got the best of us. I talk to mutual friends and they are continually telling me he seems down, he really misses me, but when things are good in your present relationship, you don't walk away from it right. I find myself scared to even look back in the past because like any normal person, the past is past. Things can't be forced but why in the back of my mind do I wonder. Why am I never satisfied. It frustrates me. I have so much more on my mind but feel like I need to sensor myself for now at least. Ugh TBC...